Way to Start

Didn't even know today was the 1st of April. This is not how I expected to start the month. God forgive me. Its been too long and today I finally gave in to it; its just too hard trying to hold back anymore. I am definitely weak in all this. Have to keep it together this month. No messing around. That's how I want it but life has a way of messing with my head.

God be my helper